Today I took this picture of myself

Today I am happy

Today I feel relieved

Today I enjoyed life and look forward to dreaming about my future

Today I could hear the birds chirping

Today is my mum’s birthday and although I miss her I am not sad

Today I reflect on how good a mum she was and how much I learnt

Today I recognise that my mood affects my child’s mood

Today I decide to just be

Today I thank God that I am known



I  know that I’ve used this song before but I felt that it was fitting to use it with this image that  is seen below. This song evokes something in me just like the image. It’s like a stirring within me that shows me how thirsty I am for the presence of God. I am a person who is emotionally self sufficient and some would say, that I am a coper.
I have never been needy and sometimes I have judged others who appear as though they are. Sometimes being this way makes me forget how much God wants to bless and look after me. As much as I have the ability for emotional  sufficiency  God still wants to nurture my soul with His tenderness and love. This walk is a journey. It is one step in front of the other. It is surrender and exchange. It is love.

Journey, worn, old, tired, afraid, stories, adventure


Take the leap, uncharted, new, stepping out,


Pain, turbulence, humility,

lost at sea.

Found again, return, not to the past, return,  to the beginning.

not my own understanding


This is the long haul,


joy, peace, patience,  kindness, goodness,

faithfulness, gentleness,  self-control

the nourishment of them

shall sustain you

along the way


Yielded, pliable, surrendered

comfortable, complacent,

indifferent, sentimental wanting yesteryear.

shut down


but not for long.

The Captain is here.


Believe, courage, continue on

With feet planted firmly on the rock

trust and obedience.

The journey continues

one foot on front of the next


to brighter days.

Days that can not be imagined

yet waiting


hiding in the wings of refuge

knowing safety within the fortress.



It is finished

The living water

As a result of being zapped by God….yes zapped…..Jason (who is Deeper Cries Out) and I have commenced worship sessions at our church on a Monday mornings. After the third week we are experiencing  more freedom, we are writing songs and developing and atmosphere of Worship. Yesterday as  Jason was playing his guitar,  we went into spontaneous worship and these images and words came to me. I hope they lift your spirit?

The living water the never runs dry

life-giving, fresh and alive

The water was trickling over the rocks

and sparkling. If sound could sparkle

then it became a bubbling creek, strong, forceful,

clean, fresh  joyful and on the move

then there was like the roar of the ocean

powerful roaring like a lion, unstoppable

And then the crashing waters spilling out with great

unrelenting force

uncontainable power, dynamic

and awesome with majesty.

Under the Blue Sky

A walk to the shops, down the road under the blue sky, cars everywhere, telegraph poles, streetlights traffic lights.

We find the path and stand clear for cyclists, do we venture through the tunnel or over the bridge?

Under the blue sky we walk interrupted vision by man-made structures invade our thoughts and become the landscape.

This is the landscape, this is what we know the sights and sounds burn deep in our brains.

Is it a bad thing? Is it a good thing? It’s just what it is. It’s all I know. It’s all some will ever know.

Beautiful Flower

beautiful flower, lovely memories, easy to care for, part of my inheritance, kindness, cheerfulness spreading the love.

when things go sour there is always the nurturing heart, sadness comes, sadness goes, loneliness is sometimes a part of it.

Don’t be afraid, the broken shall be healed, the down cast shall be lifted, life happen’s, things happen, God happen’s and intervene’s.

My future is bright, I don’t need to dwell on great pain or great loss. I’m free to live in joy so my maker tells me so.

I’ll be joyful tomorrow as I weep the night away, I’ll be strong in the morning and rise up with gladness. Integrity and understanding shall be my companions.

I walk not alone, I’m not alone, wisdom has come on board for the ride. side by side

squeezy wheezy cuddle wuddle

Rhythm and rhyme that’s what my son likes to do.

it’s one of his favorite things to do mind you.

he like’s to squeezy weezy and cuddle wuddle.

watch out now for that muddle of  puddle.

does that make sense?

no it doesn’t wuzzn’t

it’s not meant to make sense it’s just rhythm and rhyme.

in spite of my son’s disability he has loads of availability

kicking out rhythms to immerse in the verse.

he doesn’t want any more jelly on his belly

jelly on his belly means watching his heart on the telly.

I don’t think my son’s condition is all the scary

I think his head is  quite literary.

so lets continue with the fun and games

and every one have fun

lots of fun with our names and claims and all things flames.