I’m feeling quite refreshed right now as I have decided not to partake in Study period 4 and to just enjoy the Christmas break. Last year I nearly had a breakdown and I am determined that holiday’s should be a holiday.
One of the enjoyable things that I like to do is read novels and here is a tower that I got from the library the other day
Last night I finished the first book of the rank The Song House by Trezza Azzapordi. An intriguing book that kept me going, but a bit disappointed at the conclusion. I still recommend it as a good read though.
Anyway this is me doing one of the things that I love and hope others will find the time to do likewise. It’s worth it for good mental health (for me anyway).
One of the subjects that I’m doing is called Technologies for learning and I have been quietly surprised at how I am enjoying it. I never thought technology could be so much fun.
What has impressed me is how I have been able to work stuff out and add some creativity to the projects. I created a website for my last assignment and now I feel that more doors are open to me. For our latest task we had to make a video of our working life and I enjoyed the challenge.
At the moment I am in a place of fresh creativity and innovation. It’s all very exciting for me as my world has opened for new possibilities for the future.
I have just completed and sent an assignment that was supposed to be sent last night and I’m a little dissapointed with myself but not devastated. My brain just hasn’t been able to get the information that I’ve read out of my head and into a format that is ready for marking.
Oh well, life could be worse!!
It has been a distracting couple of weeks as my husband went on a mission to India. You can read about his adventures on his blog called Deeper Cries Out. It has also been school holidays and when the young lad is home every day it is very hard to concentrate on writing, so my studies kind of went blah!!!!
I really didn’t care to be honest as I decided that this holidays were going to be fun and if my studies fall by the way side for two weeks then so be it. This holidays we went to the garden where I actually did some gardening for once lol. (usually I’ve been skipping around the garden like a little kid). I also took my son to free holiday activities for those who live in the post code 2523.
I’m not sure about my son but I had fun. I even made an awesome percussion instrument
This is me rocking it out at the homestead!!
Please ignore the mess of my abode.
Any hoo, back to school next week and then I can get on with my studies and hope for the life of me I don’t fail 🙂
For the next three months I am looking forward to reading novels and gobbling them down like a juicy fruit!!
I’ve decided to take a break from the next study period and recommence my studies in August as I feel very worn out at the moment. I think I’m still recovering from the Christmas holidays when I very unwisely undertook two subjects and nearly had a mental breakdown!!!!
So, on Wednesday I submitted my last assignment for my current subject and now I am looking forward to the many novels that one can read within a three-month period. It really feels like I’m going on a holiday whoo hoo!! Lets pack my creative writing bags and go on a literacy journey that has nothing to do with academic reading that requires me to respond in an academic way…it’s just all so dry!!
I am going to look forward to this time guilt free and I will regain my motivation that is required to maintain when undertaking studies of any kind. I will stop and smell the flowers and enjoy the Autumn/winter light. I will take my journal to all of my favourite cafes and just write self indulgent stuff that requires no referencing of any kind, because they are my words and they shall not be marked at all!! I shall walk slowly and take many photo’s with my iphone and drench them through Instagram like a cattle dipping experience. Well perhaps this isn’t the best way to describe it but it kind of had a groovy ring to it, so being an artist I just went for it.
I shall walk around with a smile on my face and will talk to many random strangers, which by the way is not creepy because I’m not creepy. I will be content, shall be recharged and ready to deal with stuff that I otherwise have not been able to handle of late. I will watch TV, I shall visit the library and most importantly I shall read novels!!!!!!!!
This Christmas holiday break has not felt like a break at all!!! I, in my greatness of wisdom decided to do a study period consisting of two subjects smack bang in the middle of a BLOODY HOLIDAY!!!! Seriously who studies at this time of year???? Not only have I been stressed out to my eyeballs studying, sadly my Father-in-law passed away just before Christmas. I tell you now, it’s very hard to concentrate when you are faced with all of this going on.
I want to be strong, I want to excel like some freaky Wonder women (does she even exist??) I want to be a mum to my son and a wife to my husband who just lost his dad and I want to be happy and have my sanity to remain intact. But let me inform you all, I’m losing it, I’m not strong at the moment and I’ll never be a freaky wonder women and my Son and husband deserve a mum and wife who’s sanity is in tact.
Today I went for coffee but I ordered a chi latte instead (gosh they’re nice) and before you know it I’m offloading all my crap to the girl who works at Gloria Jeans. I was explaining how next study period I will drop a subject so that I can recover my sanity. She said “no way! get it all over and done with as soon as you can” I said “NO!! noooooo waaaaay” I then commenced to give her a monologue of Tamarphilosophy of why one must not try to get things over and done with.
I was on a roll I expressed with passion that “it’s not worth it, what’s the point of getting there quickly when you haven’t enjoyed the journey. getting a degree doesn’t define who I am. For goodness sake I’m 39 and it took me this long to finally begin to study. what’s the rush??? I value my happiness. What kind of mum can I be to my child who has a disability if I’m stressed out bawling my eyes out every day??? It’s the tortoise that got there first!! Slow and steady wins the race. Being healthy isn’t just physical but mental too. This society puts too much pressure for people to rush. Everyone’s rushing and not taking the time to just enjoy their life. I am not that person, I need holidays, I need my heart to be restful, I need to go a slower pace, I need to enjoy the journey and that’s what I intend to do”
So!!! that’s me, just offloading my crap to the girl at Gloria Jeans!!!!!
This afternoon I feel as though I have had a breakthrough with my son. Usually when he comes home from school the first thing that he wants to do is play either the X box, PSP, or my iphone. I’ve really been thinking what can I do to get him to play meaningfully just like what I have been learning about through my course. I’ve never had an issue with getting other children to play along where I have facilitated a play/craft activity, however, when it comes to my son who has VCFS It seems to be a bit of a challenge.
It sometimes grieves me that he is not like other kids but nevertheless he’s my precious son and I love him and I am certain he can learn to play too. This afternoon we were out in the back yard and I suddenly got inspired to mark out the shadows on the concrete with some chalk, but then my son said “can you make a road?” the next thing he is getting me to draw our Mazda, an electric train, a cruise boat, the lake, the harbor and all the things that have meaning to him and it went on and on. He even wanted me to draw Curtin university lol!!! He is so interested in my Studies!!
He then started talking about his memories of being on a cruise that was kindly donated to us by Kidswish, recited a book about a little toy boat lost on the lake. It was so exciting for me. Then we went inside and he saw his cars and I suggested that he use them on his road where he played outside unsupervised for at least half an hour!!!! The use of language is awesome and exquisite. The concentration and in-depth play was unbelievable!! Yes he can play and I knew he had it in him but I also knew that I had to do more to release him into it as he does lack some self motivation.
I feel that if I want to be an extraordinary educator for other children, then I need to dig deeper and be that for my son too. It was a great afternoon and I feel like much was accomplished!!!